you’ll always be my baby

you'll always be my baby

good evening, fine folks. pardon my absence (again) and (again). lots of life going on right now. big things. exciting things. stressful things. i miss my blog. i miss sharing my story. i’ve got to catch you up on the wedding, the new house, dealing with my anxiety, etc. but for tonight, a love story of a girl and her pup.

[b] is traveling abroad for the next couple of weeks. (have i mentioned before that he has a blog, too? check it out here) which really bums me out. he’s my other half. my source of strength. my reminder that things will be ok. which i’ve needed a lot lately. thanks to the wonders of technology and FaceTime, i get to communicate with him quite a bit, which makes it easier. but what helps even more is having starksthepup. he’s my baby and my favorite non-human. i love him more than i ever could have imagined. even at the times when he’s being a lunatic; like when he runs through the screen door, or won’t stop pacing around, and when we go for a walk and he has to stop and either smell or pee on EVERYTHING, or when he does that high pitch whining noise in the car… even with all those things he makes my heart full every day. every morning when i wake up he is snuggling right next to me (sometimes with his face IN my face – that’s precious) and when i come home from work he is thrilled just to see me. and wants nothing more than to have his belly rubbed and play ball. and eat treats, too of course.

tonight we went on a 2 mile run (more like a jog, let’s be honest) and came back home and played ball in the backyard for almost an hour. and for that hour i wasn’t thinking about anything, or worried about anything, or sad about anything, or anxious about anything. i was happy. that pup is my baby. and he’s the cutest, smartest, more adorable pup you ever did meet. thanks for being there for me, pup, physically at least – because seriously you make the worst guard dog ever. thank goodness you’re cute.

[want more from starksthepup? be sure to follow me on instagram and follow him on Twitter – @starksthepup]



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congratulations, class of 2007

congratulations, class of 2007 // toast to 10,000

Whatever you choose, however many roads you travel, I hope that you choose not to be a lady. I hope you will find some way to break the rules and make a little trouble out there. And I also hope that you will choose to make some of that trouble on behalf of women.

seniors say that they’ve got spirit, stand up now, and let’s hear it! 07! 07! 0007! the young pup graduates from high school tomorrow – which seriously just blows my mind. he’s supposed to stay young forever, right? isn’t that a thing? but i guess that’s not happening. he’s now taller than i am and just one short walk across the stage away from starting the next chapter of his life. i’ve already accepted that i’m going to get emotional about all this. but, enough about him, i’ll be sharing plenty about him later tomorrow and this weekend. what we need to be talking about is the fact that it was 7 years since i graduated high school. cray. cray.

the funny thing about high school is that while you’re there it feels like the most important time of your life. and well, up until then it really is. and during those 4 years you have some great and wonderful memories that you’ll always remember; like bus rides with the soccer girls, or junior year homecoming piled in the back of a friends truck blaring AC/DC and getting away from the senior girls, skipping class to work on show choir choreography, or when the football team WON homecoming your senior year and it was madness. those are the moments you look back on and smile. but high school is full of awkward, not so happy times too; the time you didn’t make varsity soccer, or not getting asked to prom, or the time you asked someone to prom and they said no, or when the friends you have become the friends you had… high school was bittersweet with more of bitter than sweet. i played sports but wasn’t a big athlete; i did well in school but wasn’t crazy smart; i wasn’t one of the “cool kids”… i learned some things there about life, myself and other people; but i was happy to be moving on when i switched that tassel to the other side. and ready to start fresh somewhere new.

it’s really incredible when you think of all the things that happened in the past 7 years. i moved out of the home i’d grown up in; started college in a new place with nobody i knew; had some relationships; learned a lot more about myself and who my real friends are; got an incredible internship and started at the job i am still at today; graduated college and spoke at my commencement ceremony; started blogging; moved into an apartment in minneapolis with my best friend; moved into another apartment in minneapolis and lived on my own for the first time; got in the best shape i’ve been in and run 2 half marathons; traveled all over the US from Massachusetts to California to Texas and everywhere in between; met a guy; moved in with that guy; become mom to starksthepup; spoke at a conference on social media (twice); got engaged to that guy (yes, that guy is [B]) and now i’m planning a wedding, house hunting and talking about our future together… i never imagined that my life would turn out this way. and i couldn’t be happier.

to all you grads out there; enjoy this moment. i’m sure you thought it would never come. so after you take a post diploma selfie and snapchat and post it to Facebook and Twitter and Instagram and #2K14 or #somecheeesylyricstoavitamincsong take a moment to stop and soak it all in. remember the good moments and try to not dwell so much on the bad. because incredible amounts of fabulous things are just waiting ahead of you. the future is yours. it doesn’t matter if you were the athlete, the basket case, the princess the brain or the criminal… it’s a new start and a new chapter. and if nothing else, always remember… “you’re braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.”

note: you may find yourself wondering, looking at these snaps from my graduation, where is the young pup? i too find myself wondering that. he was camping. and not present at my high school graduation. or at my high school graduation open house. yes, i’m over it. and yes, i’d love to tell you more about how my youngest brother missed such an important milestone in my life. for this reason my attendance at his graduation festivities this weekend is tentative. just kidding brother… maybe… [i don’t hold grudges, i remember facts.] 

ALHS Graduation 2007

ALHS Graduation 2007

ALHS Graduation 2007

ALHS Graduation 2007

how to make a best friend // a short story

this is the story of a girl two best friends.

step 1: learn about each other because of significant others and proceed to Facebook stalk each other

step 2: take a 10 day road trip from MN to the Grand Canyon, Las Vegas, and California together – this will be the first time you meet

step 3: celebrate a 21st birthday in las vegas

step 4: consume beverages, of the alcoholic nature.

step 5: dance. a lot.

step 6: become the 2 best friends that anyone could have.

simple right? yes. what follows will be years filled with activities such as binge watching prison break; trips to Florida; date nights; learning life’s valuable lessons such as do not put wine in the freezer and forget about it; laughing, lots of laughing; helping one another move; help plan weddings and celebrate at the wedding accordingly; phone dates that celebrate the happy things and support the other with the not so happy things; stalking potential boyfriends on Facebook; drinking wine, lots of wine; have play dates with our puppies; and so many other things that haven’t even happened yet.

i was lucky enough to stumble upon these steps when finding my best friend that anyone could have just about 4 years ago exactly. and today on her birthday i wish her nothing but the absolute best life has to offer; i am so thankful for our friendship and i can’t wait for all of the memories yet to be made. happy birthday lover pants!

ps. today is also her 2nd wedding anniversary with her hubster. YAY!!! i wish them both the best anniversary ever, because they are pretty much my favorite couple ever; except for [B] and i, we’re pretty awesome. please note michael that these are, and will always be separate holidays.


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